hello readers. sorry for the long absence. lately, i've been busy with quite a bit. hvnt really had any musings, well not as much as rachel la obviously. hahah:p

second chances. it get tough to decide whether a person really deserves it or not. you know the sayings 'once a cheater, always a cheater' or 'a leopard never changes its spots'. rather common sayings that shows that people who have done wrong do not deserve a second chance.

but to me, by right i think everybody deserves a second chance. well, im starting to talk about religion, but i really believe so. so, you give the person who did wrong another chance right? but who's to say that he or she won't screw it up once again? do you take the risk and leap off the cliff? or do you cling on to your safety zone, closing urself up just to protect yourself from being hurt again?

a lot of my posts come from personal experience. basically, my emotional life went haywire took a nosedive from a billion feet in the air at the end of last year. i was a wreck. seriously. rachel knows.

he aka my current...well. boyfriend, um, he got himself into a HUGE mess. when i say HUGE, i mean huge. it was such a big mess and he did hurt me quite badly until all my trust in him was gone. i trusted him a lot and just in a blink of an eye, it was shattered.

to cut the long sob story short, i gave him another chance. a final chance, with fair warning that if he ever screws up just a tiny bit, he'll be dead. haha:p but, until now, it seems to be the right thing to do. yes i do feel insecure at times where i think that he was not genuine when he begged me for a second chance and promised to not hurt me again and all that.

everytime i think back on that night where he shattered my trust and my heart, i always think whether i did the right thing in giving him another shot, whether it was worth taking the risk again, giving him another chance at.. i wont really say redeeming himself but showing me that he really wants to make us work. the doubt is there. it has been four months and still, it hurts to think back on that night.

but then now, when i mull it over, through all the fights that we've had since then, he's making full use of his last chance. i'm not gonna predict anything, but i think this might actually last. at least i hope it will. so what do you think? do you think he or she deserves a second chance?