Expectations, I Cannot Do Without.

There is a certain expectation when I go out with someone.

Perhaps a plan of how the day or evening should play out.

Certain things that I would like for to happen throughout the outing.

And when these things don't happen, I get upset.

I am disappointed.

I get frustrated because I expected something.

More so if I waited to see you.

More so if while I'm waiting for hours on end.

More so if I'm really exhausted but I still want to see you.

And when I do, it just doesn't go according to plan.

And you want to know what the funny thing is?

It is no fault of yours at all.

It's all me.

I'm sorry I'm so messed up.

Maybe it's just best to not expect anything.

But then the question is, is that even possible?

I would think not.

How's the Weather Up There?

Has anyone ever wondered why in most couples, the female tends to be shorter than the male? Put aside the 'uncommon' couples whereby the woman is actually taller than the man.

Normally, the idea of a shorter man is a complete turnoff to most woman. Why?

You know how they say men are more visual creatures? That happens to be very very true.  Why do you think porn is such a lucrative industry?

When a man gazes down at a woman, her features appear softer and smaller and less threatening (resembling that of a child). It basically just makes them look better (think small nose, big puppy eyes looking right at you, pouty mouth). See? It makes them appear 'vulnerable' and 'fragile'. This then ignites the whole 'protective' instinct that exists in men; paternal instinct to protect the weak. You could say it's evolution's gift.

And what about women, you ask? Females aren't known to be as concerned with looks as their counterparts. But! Bear in mind that when you look up at a person, it's some sort of 'authority' as they are bigger than you so therefore you, being the smaller creature would obviously submit to them so you can stay alive. I'm obviously referring to the whole caveman-uncivilized, you get it.

So males look down (literally, this time) on female which makes them want to provide for and protect this weaker sex. Females look up at males and because of previous conditioning (think a child looking up at an adult, conditioned that the 'bigger' person is in charge. Authority and all that), she will submit to him.

And that is how you have a happy home.
Or at least, that was. In today's world? Pfftt.. Good luck.
You may be better off with a T-rex.

Concurring Thoughts.

It's been a while since I've written anything on here. I think the last post dates back about a year or two at least. So what am I doing here, you ask? I'm not too sure either. Probably procrastinating from working on my thesis or something along those lines. It's always something like that, one way or another.

I came across one of my older posts. You can check it out here. It basically speaks about a person being in a relationship and thinking the world of their significant other. But once the relationship ends, suddenly their eyes are open and they see their ex's true colors.

Fours years down the road. Here I am. And I am able to tell you without a doubt that it is entirely true. When I look back, I really do wonder if I was drunk throughout the entire relationship. But as the post said, the good part is that it is now over. And it would be wise to not allow another situation like that to take place.

I pray it doesn't. Fingers crossed this time.
I want to update. I should update. I need to update.
This is therapy.