Today is Enough.

I learned many things when I was young. Many of those things crushed and put and end to my blissful childhood. Such as, Santa Claus isn't real. And the toothfairy really was my mummy leaving money under my pillow. When I was really young, I also learned that forever doesn't exist.

My best friends used to say " We'll be best friends forever."

Many of them I hardly even remember anymore.

" I'll be with you forever." Many boys have said this till sometimes you wonder if it's only lip service. A sort of obligation that each of them are required to profess to you.

None of these ever happened. Forever is like a mystical elusive beast. One of which I have never encountered. I have also never heard or seen it existing in reality. Seeing is believing, right?

So when you say, " You'll love me forever ", what am I supposed to think?

I'm sorry I doubt you when you say such things to me.

I know it hurts you when you think that I don't trust you.

That I don't believe you when you speak of your visions of eternal happiness together.

Of shared memories, happy moments and lazy Sunday mornings spent in bed together for the rest of our lives.

But how do you know that what we have, what we share is able to withstand the test of time? Of emotional volcanic eruptions that are sure to come? Are we strong enough? Will I be able to see the relationship through? It doesn't even have to be in a romantic sense.

What if you move to a far far away land? Will you keep in touch? Will I see you? Or what if I wrong you so badly that you can't even stand the sight of me? How will you hold my hand through those tough times anymore?

So don't speak to me about forever.

I just want to hear about today. Please.